The Way I Write

I think about how I write a lot, because no one person writes the same way, that's why we're all individuals and unique. Like I've mentioned before, I've been writing for as long as I can remember. It's the only thing besides motherhood that's truly come naturally to me. Ideas pop into my head a lot and my brain's always working, even when I sleep.


A lot of times I'll have this dream, sometimes great, other times not so much, and it'll help me where I'm stuck or it'll just give a great idea for another book I'm working on. I never use my dreams exactly how I dream them because then I'd have a lot of stories of me and Jensen Ackles fighting demons and kicking some serious ass. It would get kind of boring if you'd have to read that more than once. So I usually take the idea and make a lot of changes or I won't end up using it at all. But it's usually a start.

Which kind of brings me to my next point. When I'm working on a book I already have a clear visual in my head of what the characters look like and what music would best go with their flow. After I've picked the music, everything in my head is no longer 2 dimensional. It all ends up like a little movie playing in my head or maybe even a music video with a lot of talking. It's all clear and I can picture everything happening as it's happening.

I've had a fascination with movies for as long as I can remember and they're almost always in my head. That's probably why it isn't a steep step to picturing my books the way I do. When I was a kid, I used to think life was one big movie and someone out there was watching, probably getting a huge kick out of everything. I had a very active imagination growing up, which for the most part has helped tremendously with writing.

Writing the Blog

The ego in me tells me I can actually write. I have the talent to actually write a full fledge novel. Some of the stuff I've written is half way decent enough for people to read, and I've been told they like it (but mom's always tell their kids how much they like the things they do. It's in their mommy contract. I should know, I signed my own 7 years ago.

As I was saying, no issues whatsoever writing a book, but when it comes to writing a blog I'm more than a little intimidated. I feel like that kid that's picked last to play baseball. My sense of humor ends up disappearing and I don know what to write. Do I write a funny blog with the sense of humor of a wet leaf? Do I become this serious person I never am? There are just so many fears and thoughts that go through my head when I'm thinking of what to write I end up coming off like someone whose blog I'd never read. No humor, no sarcasm or anything interesting at all.

Most of the time I feel untrue to myself. Or maybe it's really me and I'm really just that boring and no one would actually want to read about me and my life. For being an only child, I still have a shy streak that tells me I shouldn't toot my own horn because it's just not right. But there isn't wrong with blaring your own horn (and train whistle) every once in awhile because everyone needs that healthy dose of ego and selfishness.

I'm going to add another resolution to my list (I promised you I would): when it comes to blog writing I'm not going to hold back like I used. I will be honest about things that matter, but certain things that are close to my heart will never be mentioned here.

Well, here's to a new year and being a more open me.